Yuval Mann

This is a story about unconditional undying love, death, and beautiful cosmic synchronicity. It’s also a story of how my work with Thomas changed me and opened me to my true abilities of love as this unbelievable story happened right about when we started working together. ~~~~ I met Andreas a few months back in a coffee shop in Koh Phangan, and we clicked. One day, at his pool, talking about the nature of my work and his relationship reality, we decided to start doing some work together. That day, we had a session over a few hours, by the pool, talked about love, heart opening, and about his woman - Ella. Ella and Andreas met here on the island a few years back and at some point started dating. When we started working together, they had challenges between them, and the love was not flowing fully. Two months later, on April 4th, Ella had dropped her body suddenly on the beautiful Why Nam beach. “From our session by the pool and until the night she died, we spent every night together, and it was the most beautiful time of our lives,” he told me. It’s like their souls knew what is about to happen… He also told me that her last words to him were “I love you, I love you, I love you, I knew you have the capacity for such love and it was worth the waiting of two years. I've never felt so loved and cared for” as she was dancing around him. Many of her friends told me later how she was so excited these last few months, constantly talking about her newfound love with Andreas and about this mysterious dude of love he started working with. The night of her death, she had been going around and having very loving and deep conversations full of appreciation with all of her friends, like her soul knew she’s about to leave her body. It gets even crazier: The night of her death, before I heard the news, I was in my house, on a very deep psilocybin mushroom trip. My entire experience was about loving and dying. I have never experienced such a powerful astral journey before in my 12+ years of psychedelic exploration; I lived memories of ancestors and experienced their birth, death, pains, and traumas over and over again. I went all the way back all the way to my mother's womb and to the moment of my parents making love conceiving me, I could feel their love. I’ve experienced firsthand all the love that had been perpetuated throughout generations for me to be here now. Even though the experiences were traumatic as I was raped, running from a burning house, and dying many times; I could feel nothing but the undying pure love that is moving and connecting everything and everyone in this kosmos. And "I" was but a part of that love. I woke up the next morning to a call from Andreas letting me know what had happened, I immediately jumped on my bike and came over. On my way to him, I was wondering what does one even say to someone who has just experienced such a loss? How do you even start? Then immediately the voices of Maharaji and Thomas in me came about saying “Perhaps you don’t say, you just let love speak and stay conscious”. We spent the next couple of days loving and dying in love, crying, meditating on love. We have made a ceremony of love in her memory on the beach where she lived, and I had the honor of leading a loving awareness meditation and letting Neem Karoli Baba speak through me on death and unconditional love. On how beautiful it is that even though she dropped her body, she’s very much still here in all of us, giving up the gift of her love so we can continue living, loving more fully, and appreciate each other more often. A few people came to me after sharing their personal losses of loved ones and how these words touched them and softened their hearts. It’s like my Dharma has been preparing me my entire life for this. The spontaneous heart awakening I've experienced a while back changed the course and nature of my life and work, meeting Thomas and Maharaji, living and dying as my ancestors on the mushrooms, then immediately experiencing the love and death of Ella first hand. Ella came into my life through my love for Andreas. A love that was flowing through Thomas and Mahraji to me, to him, and kept flowing towards her and on and on through the entire community here as they have connected to this story. How powerful that is. How far and impactful a simple act of service can be... In loving memory of Her, may she rest in peace, and may her undying love and soul keep vibrating and perpetuate through every fiber of our being. I love you