Andrew Croft

My first call with Thomas Whigham and this is what happened (and also there is an invitation at the end of this post for those who it resonates with). Me and Tom connected for the first time in messenger just a few hours ago.... I told Tom about my addiction issues and recent relapse. He offered to call me and talk about addiction... with the only topics that will be discussed, or even worth discussing, being 'God' and 'Surrender'. I knew immediately that this would be a 'different' kind of addiction conversation that I was used to having. And since I'm sooo sick of spending my life going in and out of addiction... I need something different, that's for sure. We had a call. We talked about God, and we talked about surrender. We also talked about Love. And about Acceptance. While we talked, I was able to notice my experince shift. What was most profound for me was how I was able to notice how the experience of Love that I could feel inside of me would change, both the love I felt for Tom, but particularly the love I was able to let in, the experience of being loved, and allowing that experience of being loved and cared for to just Be. I have blocks up that are very old, that prevent me from experiencing love, or letting love in. I knew these blocks were there... but this time they were far more clear and obvious they are there, and that I need to do some work to let them go and surrender to love. At the end of our call Tom told me that there are 2 things he can do for me in terms of helping with addiction recovery: 1 - He can do the usual stuff suff as tell me to 'take it 1 day at a time' and go to an AA meeting etc. 2 - Or he can help me with the big stuff... the scary stuff, the things that will TRULY make the big difference. I told him that, as scary is it is for me, I'm ready to take the next leap on my path and do the big stuff, the scary stuff that I've been avoiding.... and totally surrender to Tom and what he is offering. He said he will help me... But on one condition (and this is where the 'invitation' comes in).... I join an AA meeting.... today.... I attend it.... and report back after, and do this every day for a period of time. Also to find a sponsor and work the 12 steps. This is in fact something I had always avoided and never done, until recently after speaking to people who have benefited tremendously from it. I just needed a kick up the arse and enough reason to go do it... and here is that kick up the ass, right on time, right on my 'Day 1 sober' which also happens to be today. So, the invitation.... Tom suggested I write this post and also offer it as an INVITATION to those who might also benefit from this YOU (reading this) are invited to come and particate in this with me.... to work through the 6 steps alongside myself and whoever else, and also to join in what myself and Tom will be doing together. If that calls you, just reach out to me in a message Love, Gratitude, Surrender