Hudson Greening

My coaching so far with Thomas and the one concept that changed my life To give you a short summary of my background and why I came to Thomas. I have clinically diagnosed OCD that I've had my whole life. No, not the check the stove five times over more just completely obsessive. No, not just overthinking, literally a debilitating psychological itch that would never go away and lead me to self-isolation and self-destruction. I would obsess about the littlest, most trivial seeming things. For example, when I used to produce music, I would obsess about the colour and shape of certain tracks, and if it didn't fit with others', I wouldn't release it. I would obsess about it over and over again. I would also obsess over failures, and recently I would obsess over what the f*ck the point of our very existence is and how I should best live my life from now to death. Trying to come to a conclusion on questions like "Does consciousness exist outside of the mind?" "What's happens after death?" Looking into metaphysics, nihilism, religion, evolution, and everywhere furiously for answers In attempts to conquer the monster in my head, I tried seeing a psychologist. Heaps and heaps of meditation (hours every day), studied the unconscious and subconscious mind trying to get the bottom of my obsessiveness, yes I read Letting Go by the beloved Dr. Hawkins. But none of it freed me from my obsessiveness, and in some ways, it got worse. I had one call with Thomas, where I was pretty much at a breaking point and felt completely lost and confused. He then introduced me to the idea of surrender. He got me to read an article from alcoholics anonymous describing concisely and beautifully what surrender is. At that moment, it occurred to me that my obsessiveness and my overthinking and my need for control and to have all the answers was literally no different to an alcoholic, junkie, or any of that. It was literally just as debilitating, and it all stemmed from that same spiritual emptiness so many of us have below the surface. I had heard concepts such as acceptance and letting go. But merely sitting there "allowing" or "accepting" my feelings and trying to "let them go" never did shit. To me, surrender means completely giving up control, giving up. Accepting powerlessness, Letting whatever emotions or unease be there with zero resistance and flow like a river and, most importantly, becoming nothing onto god, love, the universe, oneness, etc. After Thomas introduced me to surrender, he got me to feel the unease that sits behind all my insistent compulsion and realized that this suffering is everyone else's suffering. He got me to visualize others in pain and visualize, helping them and making their lives better and giving love. Days after that call, I put all my focus and attention on these two very concepts. Surrendering and focusing and visualizing freeing others from pain and suffering and giving them love and feeling connected to everything. Since this call, which was on the 1st of September, I've had some small relapses to my OCD. But mostly, I've freed myself from this debilitating condition (something I wasn't able to achieve through seeing a psychologist, meditation, a healthy diet, and exercise any of that). Often we overlook just how small we all are. We are simply one small speck of dust in an infinite universe. If you right now feel that same unease in the background, that feeling of there always being something wrong, something missing, some answer to find, something to resolve, constant anxiety. See this as your call to surrender, give up, and let love and oneness guide your every action. Step into power over force, live a life of simplicity. Surrender to love and serve. That's all you have to do. F*ck success, f*ck sleeping with 1000's of women, trying to be a millionaire before 25. All of this is pointless without love and connectedness to the whole. And when you surrender to love, abundance flows far more than when you are running around trying to fill an empty void. The grass is never greener on the other side. I would highly suggest doing coaching with Thomas. He's a crazy motherf*cker, but he's working miracles every single day, and he practices everything preaches Love